Daggers at my soul

Ten months since I saw you last and yet the hurt is still there. You told me you loved me. You had become my best friend. You had become a confidant. I felt safe talking with you, exposing my dreams, my thoughts, my fears, my soul. Maybe I stepped over the line. But I never wanted to break a confidence. I never let us get in a situation where integrity could be compromised. And now you won't even talk to me. You told me you were leaving, yet my heart still hurts. Everyday. It's as if the universe is throwing daggers at my soul. When will the hurt stop. I don't want to forget you. You are too special for that. But the pain has got to end. I'm ready to just give up. I can't take the pain every day. I will go insane. I just don't know what I will do. I just don't know. But I do know I still love you. I know I still want you as a friend and nothing more. Just stop the pain.