I cannot begin to express what you have meant to me. I am also so sorry to have hurt you. And I will forever regret having caused you to be pushed away.
So much has happened to me in the past year or two. I was probably directly a cause of some, if not most of it. Now it is time for me to learn who I am. Me as a solitary person. I have never been without someone that was a part of what defined me. Now there is just me. I have pushed and lost those who were that part of me, sometimes deliberately and some by stupid decisions. I don't know who I am. Kind of late in life to realize that I guess but better than never knowing.
The trek of this discovery has begun and I have no idea where it will lead. It is frightening to be alone. Maybe this is part of the rite of passage. Am I strong enough? Am I smart enough? Am I resourceful enough? I just don't know.
One thing I have learned is that nothing is written in stone except that this journey through life is finite. We just don't know when it will come to a screeching halt unless we choose that moment to end the trip. So I am going to try and grasp what I can during the short time that is left.
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